31.5.07

What La-De-Da Freaking *BEEP* Year This Has Been SO Far

This has been in my craw for months just had to get it out of my system. Just so I could start living my life like a regular person. OKAY, OK, I will never be a regular person but always be a weird WAL-Martian true blue. This has transpired over several months worth of seething hate and discontent towards one man at the store I work.
If it could go wrong it did. I didn't think that a person could be so freaking stupid or insensitive, BOY was I wrong. But HOPEFULLY, he will get it in the end. This Freakin ASSHOLE that I work with at Wal-Mart decided that I needed to be number 1 in his cross-hairs for the last few months -- nay about the last year if memory is correct. DAMN, I have put up with his shit that long. I am just as stupid as those women who take back their freakin abusive husbands. BUT TODAY, I took a step forward and laid the gauntlet DOWN on his ass!!!! This ASS has been verbally harassing and terrorizing me for months now, this time he totally fucked up. Mostly it's been she said --- he said shit. TODAY, he did it in front of people including a manager. YIPPEE!! I have mentioned it to other managers but they have always said oohhh that is just the way he is and deal with it. I am totally scared to be in the same room with him afraid that he will just start going off on me for no reason, so I have avoided him, not talked to him. In fact just steered away if he came into the same part of the store I was in. NOT anymore!!

I AM WOMAN!!! I AM NOT AFRAID OF YOU ANY MORE you fuckin asshole. HEAR MY ROAR!!

my empowerment speech.. gotta love it, right hehehe.


so any who, he decided that I don't know how do my job and he does so he proceeded to tell me that I can't do it and that I am a little girl to him and a basically a second-class citizen.


I hope he looses his job. My day will be complete. thank you

He has picked on me one too many times. I will have my day in court. Wal-Mart court but it will be a good day in My World.


To no avail I did have my "Day in Court" and I am still seething about the injustice that I am getting in this store. This man/thing/no human speed bump has still a job and still looms over me like he is the KING of all women he freakin sucks donkey D***s. Here is what transpired in the last few weeks....

Life rounded me up and gave me a virtual black eye.
So, my idea of being a sweet person and letting things slide and nothing can bother me has been blown into little bits.
OKAY
Finally, the management of my store has started to do something about that A-hole that cussed me out last summer. Yeah, TWO months later, but it was a 'talking' too. Almost too little too late kinda thing for my taste. THE A-HOLE got me again, I had to go out and do one of his freaking responsibilities that I don't get paid for and he was suppose to finish up something that HE had ignored to do at the first of the week, so now it was late and there were 'reports' getting printed that the big boss was getting. Those reports let them know that the assistant isn't doing their job. So, I was bailing out the department again and HE FUCKED me over... needless to say I ain't at all happy. That BIGOTED fucker needs to be --- GAWD I don't know what do to him. But he lives several centuries behind the rest of the world. One thing he doesn't need to be workin in MY store anymore that is a fact.

Thank you for reading and keep it up. Maybe I will be less vulgar and more ME but the Wal-Martian has changed my DNA to just a mean and spiteful person, I don't know who I am anymore. I need something different. Let's work on changing me back to my sweet cool self again.

29.5.07

Friends Lost then Found

I really love it when old friends that haven't called or emailed for months - nay almost years start talking again. Understand I am not complaining I really LOVE it! Making dates to see each other the next day. I almost can't wait to see them. I know we all get wrapped up in the lives that we live, but why do we always put the ones whom we care for the most on the back burner?

It makes you want to take in account do we really care for them, want them in our lives. Or are the just little toys that we play with till we are tired. Later on when we are trying to make room there they are and we want to see what it is like to play with the familiar?

Then it makes me wonder what attracted them to me at the first? Why they stopped talking to me, stopped calling me; stopped everything? What did I do to change their attitude towards me? Did I make them angry? Am I no good for them? Did I change in some way that turned them away from me?

BUT, they call me back and say HI! what's up? Do you wanna? and I take them back into my heart.

is that me being a sucker? a schmuck? or just REALLY REALLY paranoid?


the world may never know, how many licks it takes ......

Reasoning of Serenity


Today, I have decided to take some advice from a friend. She said to stop being a bitch to everyone. Go figure it worked for about an hour. Though that is a hour down, now to work on the rest of the 23 . Hince the Serenity title. I figure if I can just make my life less complicated and more serene, I don't need to be so bitchy to the rest of the world. Mind you there are people out there that just can't understand being nice or kindness to someone if their life depended on it. Ohh, damn, there I go again. HAHAHAHA so much for hour 2!!!

Here is alittle about myself.

Born and bred in southwest Missouri. Yes, a bonafide hillbilly. I am 40, mother of 2 , married for 20 years, these are the plus' in my life

the minus' are I work for Wal-Mart!! working there is great. if I didn't have to deal with the mindless, lobotomized management and others who are just either just evolved from primordieal ooze or their family tree has maybe one fork in it.

BUT hey!! that is why I am doing this blog. I hope ya'll come back and read about my ravings and outrages about life and the world in general.

28.5.07

One Month Ago and STILL fresh...

4 dead in Kansas City shootings

Two people wounded at one of city’s busiest shopping centers

http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/18384740/


All I heard on the phone was "MOMMY please help me !!! " She was screaming and crying . That is all I heard. I didn't know what was taking place. Just got home from work and she was hysterical. I was just about to yell at her for staying out too long. But all I heard is MOMMY! PLEASE HELP ME!!


I calmed her down told her to stay low and in no means if don't look up to see what is going on, NOT until someone comes to you and says it's ok to move around.


What can I say. VIOLENCE has dipped its evil hands into my peaceful family. I can't protect them <my kids> all the time 24/7 but WTF.


My fourteen year old girl was terrorized today at the local mall with her best friend. They got SO lucky. They were in the restaurant next to where all the major shooting happened. From what they told me, there was a shot that came really close to their heads.


I am afraid she is not going to want to go out anymore without me or her father around. I am making her go to school tomorrow just to be around kids. She is been scared for life. I am worried for her now being round death that close.


May 25th


What were you Doing 30 years ago??
Thirty years ago, May 25. My life was changed. A huge movie buff I witnessed a wonderful and intriguing movie that change the world. YES, it was STAR WARS! Do you remember seeing it the first time. Where you watched it? The friends you went with you. HOW MANY TIMES DID YOU SEE IT? How long you waited in line to see it. I still watch it in the confines of my little house, but nowadays we have HDTVs and 5.1 surround systems. something that wouldn't have even been dreamed about way back in the 70's. Those memories are so fresh, and what a joy to linger in them once

Moon U


You are The Moon


Hope, expectation, Bright promises.


The Moon is a card of magic and mystery - when prominent you know that nothing is as it seems, particularly when it concerns relationships. All logic is thrown out the window.


The Moon is all about visions and illusions, madness, genius and poetry. This is a card that has to do with sleep, and so with both dreams and nightmares. It is a scary card in that it warns that there might be hidden enemies, tricks and falsehoods. But it should also be remembered that this is a card of great creativity, of powerful magic, primal feelings and intuition. You may be going through a time of emotional and mental trial; if you have any past mental problems, you must be vigilant in taking your medication but avoid drugs or alcohol, as abuse of either will cause them irreparable damage. This time however, can also result in great creativity, psychic powers, visions and insight. You can and should trust your intuition.


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