Emawkc, it was not you I was directing my comments too. Honestly, yours are the kindest I have heard. I must say there were some that are truly excited for me but MOST are the total negative. One woman said to me well, I hope that baby isn't born with down syndrome or has autism because you are so OLD. other comments are you gonna get rid of it cuz you are so OLD.. that is the negativity that I have been getting.

I am sorry if I unintentionally directed it to you or if you thought that.
I have been trying to get to that LESS stress more positive attitude with my life and it seems everything that is stressful in my life comes from work. not my family or even my extended family.

So, Emawkc I graciously accept your kindness. I thank you for your explanation. Even though it's not necessary I needed to blow off some steam from the old biddies that I work around.

Okay, week 15 1/2 into the swelling of the belly!! LOL that is my news.


Thank You I think????

Emawkc, thank you for the congratulations.
it's is a blessing/miracle. but trust me I am not going to turn this blog into a look at me and baby growing kinda crap that all new mommies do with their blogs. it's like they are pimping their babies. that is just boring and eewww. yah, I am pregnant.
woot it's not something worse than cancer or whatever. so, don't think that it's a bad thing.
I have had many, many people tell me thank god it's not me. and all I want to say is thank you for all the negativity you are giving me. I just want to run and hide from the world because of these people. these are the kind of people that would abort a embryo at the first sign of a birth defect or just cause its their time to be selfish. but they are totally against abortion.
SO, yes congratulations are in order. I DON'T need the negativity in my life right now. I have enough with my Job.


Freaks in the House!!

Hello again!
after a very long extensive bout of insanity I have decided to come back to blogging. I am sorry that I missed so many months, but there has been nothing much to say or even chat about in my life but boring and all so normal insanity.
I have many new things to bitch, grip and maybe even laugh about. I think I might start it off with a HUGE bomb!

here goes.

do I do a countdown or just tell hmmmm....

just tell I think.

I been sick for about 2 months now. going to doctors and seeing specialists. As much as I really hate the medical field and most of the peoples that work in that said field. *no offense to those if there are any readers out there that are med techs of one thing or another* it's just a bunch of guessing until the right test is given and analyzed before the diagnosis is told.

making this huge bomb even bigger and more exciting I am stalling to tell you what I have been going thru.

So, right side pain and lower right side pain, so bad that I am curled up in a ball, bawling my eyes out makes my dear husband call the doctor and make an appointment asap. there I am being big girl and becoming guinea pig number one. ok no swine flu. no pneumonia. no appendicitis. still in pain but no clue what is wrong with me. let's take a CT scan of the lower abdomen. if anyone has had one of these it's pretty cool until you have to ONLY drink barium sulfate. PUKE!! puke!! PUKE!! of course my barium was berry flavored, so it was like drinking berry flavored chalk. and not just a few ounces of the shit but 1350 milliliters of the crap. and side effects vary in people... DON'T fucking believe a fucking word you read about this shit. diarrhea, and major puking involve with me. so I am thinking everyone in the world is lying when they say I didn't' have any side effect!! BULL SHIT!

ok on with the fun...

inconclusive -- diagnosis basically there is a hardening of the endometerial wall of my uterus. going thru my brains was endometriosis, uterine cancer, really any kind of cancer known to man and the worst of all it's all in my head you really just need to learn to live with the pain.

which brings me to ANOTHER test....

lower abdomen ultrasound.. super cool just drink water for it. I can do that no puking involved. just drink 32 ounces of water in the 2 hours before showing up at the appointment. crap. I never peed so many times before a test LOL and when I finally got to do the test. the sweet lady that did the exam god bless her, she was the marquee De Sade of the ultrasound world.. she was digging into my bladder so many times I was tearing up and thinking I was going to pee my pants so many times. all she said was hmmm aaahh ok how old are you? are you this? are you that?
answered all her questions and then some. She said, hmm ok I am finished here you clean up and sit over there for a few minutes while I call your doctor to see if I need to do anymore tests.. DAMN!! I still know nothing. about a half hour later and 4 more trips to the bathroom. She came back and said okay you can go home. WHAT THE FUCK? okay cool I am outta here.


ring ring or was it buzz buzz

yes it was buzz my blackberry was on vibrate...

is this Serenity?
Dr.******, is this a good time to talk?

*inner thoughts "oh fuck I got this, I got that"*
Yes, it is Dr.*****

are you sure?

*inner thought* OH MAJOR FUCK*

sure, what is wrong with me??

Dr-- hmmm you are like 9 and a half weeks pregnant!

HOLY shit, you are kidding me?
not kidding you, you are pregnant. the ultrasound tech found a fetus and you are having a baby. this is a viable pregnancy, she also saw the heart beat.

no fucking way. wow that is a freaking whole lot better than me thinking I have cancer!!

thank you, Doctor!

that is my news.

I am going to be 43 this December and I am pregnant with my third child.


damn, it's been almost two months since I have logged into this place. I guess I just haven't had anything to talk about. I have been playing alot of online games. Those things take up alot of my spare time. I have been very lucky here lately, I still have a job. I have made ALOT of new online friends! They are a bunch of special people! I purchased a blackberry. My GAWDS, the feeling like haven't needed another phone ever again. Then I got a new laptop. it's beautiful.

My Pretty Laptop. Dell Studio 17

my little BLACKBERRY


I Knew IT!

I knew David Carradine couldn't have committed suicide. Now hopefully the real story will come out.

Autopsy finds Carradine's death not a suicide
June 11, 2009, 3:08 PM EST
LOS ANGELES (AP) -- The independent forensics expert who examined David Carradine's body says the actor didn't commit suicide, and Carradine's brothers are asking for understanding as Thai authorities investigate.

Keith and Robert Carradine say they're grateful for the outpouring of support during what they call a "profoundly painful time." In a statement read Thursday in Los Angeles, they also thanked U.S. and Thai authorities for their work.

The family also released a statement from Dr. Michael Baden, who said Carradine's death wasn't a suicide. He said further information from Thailand is needed for a final determination.

Carradine was found dead a week ago, hanging in a closet of a Bangkok hotel


A Great One is Dead....

David Carradine dead at 72 by his own hand. That is a sad statement.
I couldn't believe my eyes when I read that. I met Mr. Carradine several years ago. I had gone to GenCon *the gamers orgasm of conventions* 2004 and found out he was there for only a few hours during the day. I TOLD my husband that I was going to stand in line all day if need be just to see him and tell him that I enjoyed his movie and hopefully get an autograph. I had both of my Kill Bill vol. one and Kill Bill vol. two on hand. He signed not only the DVDs but the inserts also. He was such a kind man.
I will miss seeing him in the movies. BUT I will carry those memories of meeting him forever


an Email I just received....

this is too funny and thank you ~MPM~

I would like to keep our Constitution and Bill of Rights, as well.

Dear American Liberals.....




Dear American liberals, leftists, social progressives, socialists, Marxists and Obama supporters, et al:

We have stuck together since the late 1950's, but the whole of this latest election process has made me realize that I want a divorce. I know we tolerated each other for many years for the sake of future generations, but sadly, this relationship has run its course. Our two ideological sides of America cannot and will not ever agree on what is right so let's just end it on friendly terms. We can smile and chalk it up to irreconcilable differences and go our own way.

Here is a model separation agreement:

Our two groups can equitably divide up this country by landmass each taking a portion. That will be the difficult part, but I am sure our two sides can come to a friendly agreement. After that, it should be relatively easy! Our respective representatives can effortlessly divide other assets since both sides have such distinct and disparate tastes.

We don't like redistributive taxes so you can keep them. You are welcome to the liberal judges and the ACLU. Since you hate guns and war, we'll take our firearms, the cops, the NRA and the military. You can keep Oprah, Michael Moore and Rosie O'Donnell (You are, however, responsible for finding a bio-diesel vehicle big enough to move all three of them).

We'll keep the capitalism, greedy corporations, pharmaceutical companies, Wal-Mart and Wall Street... You can have your beloved homeboys, hippies and illegal aliens. We'll keep the hot Alaskan hockey moms, greedy CEO's and rednecks. We'll keep the Bibles and give you NBC and Hollywood .

You can make nice with Iran and Palestine and we'll retain the right to invade and hammer places that threaten us. You can have the peaceniks and war protesters.
When our allies or our way of life are under assault, we'll help provide them security.

We'll keep our Judeo-Christian values.. You are welcome to Islam, Scientology, Humanism and Shirley McClain. You can also have the U.N.. but we will no longer be paying the bill.

We'll keep the SUVs, pickup trucks and oversized luxury cars. You can take every Volkswagon you can find.

We'll keep The Battle Hymn of the Republic and the National Anthem. I'm sure you'll be happy to substitute Imagine, I'd Like to Teach the World to Sing, Kum Ba Ya or We Are the World.

We'll practice trickle down economics and you can give trickle up poverty your best shot. Since it often so offends you, we'll keep our history, our name and our flag.

Would you agree to this? If so, please pass it along to other like minded liberal and conservative patriots and if you do not agree, just hit delete. In the spirit of friendly parting, I'll bet you which one of us will need whose help in 15 years.


John J. Wall
Law Student and an American

P.S. Also, please take Barbara Streisand & Jane Fonda with you.



can you believe this....

I would buy this house in a second. If I could afford it.

house lands on the market
May 27, 2009, 10:08 AM EST
MSN Entertainment

After their infamous day out on the town in Cameron Frye's father's Ferrari, Ferris Bueller tried to talk Cameron off the proverbial ledge as they realized that running the car backwards would not put the miles they had driven without permission back on the odometer.

Cameron's breakdown ensued, and he pushed the sports car off the actual ledge of the glass-enclosed garage on stilts.

The house, a luxury home in Illinois' Highland Park, is now on the market for $2.3 million, according to the Chicago Sun Times.

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It was designed by architects A. James Speyer and David Haid and, as viewers noted two decades ago, it sits magnificently atop a ravine. Built in 1953, the famous garage holds three cars and is detached from the main house.

According to a listing for the four-bedroom, four bathroom house, it offers 5,300 square feet of living space and is being sold by Sudler Soethby's Intertantional Realtors.

It has already piqued the interest of several would-be buyers, The Sun Times reports.



I am finding that time is slipping me by. The dull humdrums of daily living. Ya'll know work and no time for play. For the last few days I have been actually reading and watching NO television. Yah, TV is and as far back as I can remember it's been my baby sitter.
Books a better diversion than most things.
As one who tries not to go with popular trends I usually cave in the end with reluctance. I did with Harry Potter and now with the Twilight series. It is really good. Almost finished with all of them all I have to say is wow.. I can almost identify with Bella too much for a fact..

the others are series of books that I am so excited that they came out I could scream and I gobbled them up and tossed them aside after finishing them. Thank you Ms. Charlaine Harris for giving the world Sookie Stackhouse. And Ms. Kim Harrison thank you so much for giving the world Rachel Morgan.


alleged driver

I caught this before I went to bed and it is rather poorly written but if you read it carefully the man is not alleged of the theft of the truck but he is alleged of driving a truck. It is a sad, sad sign of the times.

Officer Suffers Minor Injuries After Chase

A car chase that began in Blue Springs ended with a crash in Independence this afternoon. A Blue Springs officer and the suspect both suffered minor injuries during a subsequent foot chase.

The incident began at 1:50 p.m., when a man stole a white 2006 Ford F-250 in the parking lot of a Wal-Mart at 600 N.E. Coronado Drive, according to Blue Springs Police Sgt. Don Rapp.

Minutes later, officers spotted the stolen vehicle on westbound Interstate 70 at the Woods Chapel exit. They pursued the vehicle into Independence, where the driver lost control of the stolen truck and hit several vehicles at Missouri 291 and Hidden Valley Road.

After a short foot pursuit, the alleged driver was arrested. The injured officer is back on duty tonight, Rapp said.

Meredith Rodriguez, mrodriguez@kcstar.com
Posted on Wed, Apr. 22, 2009 08:57 PM


Dan Brown

After reading everything that Mr. Dan Brown has written. Hearing that another wonderful book is about to be released is as almost good as winning a high roller poker game.
On the wake of the release of Angels and Demons the movie, here comes a new book. I hope it's just as intriguing as all the other. WAY TO GO DAN!! Honestly can't wait for either to come out.

2 more days

Yes, I have two more blissful days of vacation left. Have I gone somewhere fun, NO. Why, because I have no money to do anything fun. I have been resting and relaxing in the comfort of my home. The most energetic thing I have done is get over a migraine and somekinda insomnia. Wednesday back to the real world. Do I really sound enthused? HELL no. Though I have been Facebooking and found some games that have lead me astray from my beloved Warhammer. Mafia Wars and Trenton Made are really fun and best part free. But they shall never totally take me away from my Warhammer. *evil obsessed grin*

Questions to those who happen on this little spec of my world... I partake in the evil empire of TimeWarner Cable and to save money I am thinking of switching to another What do ya'll think? Dish Network? DirectTV? AT&T U-Verse? I live don't live in the right area to get Comcast so that option is out.
But I really haven't heard much about any of them. What are the real world pros and cons to satellite tv?? Really swaying towards AT&T because there is a all in one bill and bigger and better DSL for all the geek that are reading the upload for this AT&T is 18mbps and right now I am getting 2mbps.
What do ya'll think loyal readers?? live messages and tell me your thoughts.....



In response to XO's meme, I thought I would give it a try. I am not a religious person but I think I am an open minded person to think that there is a spiritual being out there helping out when a person really needs it. Here are my results from Beliefnet..

1. Unitarian Universalism (100%)
2. Neo-Pagan (96%)
3. Mahayana Buddhism (78%)
4. Secular Humanism (78%)
5. Theravada Buddhism (78%)
6. Jainism (73%)
7. Nontheist (71%)
8. Liberal Quakers (66%)
9. New Age (59%)
10. Mainline to Liberal Christian Protestants (54%)
11. Hinduism (50%)
12. New Thought (50%)
13. Taoism (50%)
14. Reform Judaism (42%)
15. Baha'i Faith (36%)
16. Orthodox Judaism (36%)
17. Orthodox Quaker (36%)
18. Scientology (36%)
19. Christian Science (Church of Christ, Scientist) (22%)
20. Islam (22%)
21. Sikhism (19%)
22. Mainline to Conservative Christian/Protestant (17%)
23. Seventh Day Adventist (5%)
24. Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints (Mormons) (0%)
25. Eastern Orthodox (0%)
26. Jehovah's Witness (0%)
27. Roman Catholic (0%)


Economic Lessons

Wow, I just read the best explanation of the United States economic woes from Emawkc. Thank you for that lesson in tomatoes. Don't think I can look at a tomato in the same light.

Oh Where, oh Where Have I Been


Would like to make my thanks to Troll from http://grouchycuss.blogspot.com for this very addictive website.

And other useful or useless knowledge for those into the cooking thing. I found this in my email box today. Passing it along to my one or two peoples that try to read this blog when ever I write here LOL sooooo here goes. This is a helpful hint to peeling potatoes from the wonders of Dawn Welles of Gilligan Island fame. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z4W0qIPJmoo

I know I have been gone for a long time. I just haven't had any gumption to put my words in cyberspace. I have had a lot of ideas but they like most were fleeting bouts of gas.

What have I been doing for all these months you ask? Working my a&& off in the lands of Wally-World. Trying to catch up on TV shows. The best for last playing the almost best MMORPG online game that has been invented in the last 10 years.. Yes, Warhammer. They have got it down right or almost right. but HECK they are improving daily.

So, that is my reasons for not being a faithful blogger. Forgive me please.


work work work

it's work not a career. I hate when people like me in the retail bidnezz call it a career. As everyone or that one person out there that reads me blog knows that I work for Wal-Mart. I don't dog on Wal-Mart as a whole which by the way is one of the TOP retail stores out there that has made a profit during Christmas.. ANYwhose, I only dog on those that are major STOOPID peoples that work with me.
So, where was I. Oh yeah, Career. Wal-Mart is a career if you make six digits a year, Wal-Mart is a LIFE sentence if you work for minimum wage.
BUT, in my case it's not a career or a life sentence ---- it is Day Care for ADULTS. (I think I am an adult this year. I was told that this year.) Wal-Mart keeps me warm and safe from the outside world for 9 hours a day. It has a bathroom, an area for play *electronics and toys* and they give you sharp things to cut with when you are really bored. BUT the best thing of all you get an allowance after working there two weeks.
So, my reason for blogging today is the fact it occurred to me today that I really love my job. I may really hate some of the idiots that I have to endure.

I love my job. I love my job. I love my JOB!!!

Did that sound sincere?? I can't really feel it anymore. ohh the gas past.....

tell me how you love your jobs...


Watch the Guild

OMG. I just found a show online that is just totally funny and a must see. It's call The Guild. It is so funny. If ya'll are like into the MMORPG games like I am then you will understand there are really people out there just like these people are presenting... watch and enjoy